September 06, 2010

The Stew Room

Here I sit in my office, i.e, my bedroom; lying in my comfy bed, nervous, scared, anxious.  Tomorrow is the first day of school.  Drama queen heads off to Kindergarten, and the boy to Autism Day Treatment.  I will actually have two hours to myself tomorrow.  The list I've written will not be accomplished in that time, this much I know.  Thought I'd share my list, (no, I didn't copy yours, this is an original baby)....
  1. Laundry
  2. Cleaning
  3. Paperwork (blah, always paperwork)
  4. Work
  5. Clean out the car
  6. Post Office
  7. Grocery Store
  8. Time for me...relax?
I know what the priority needs to be.  I am running on empty here as of late, making it on caffeine, a quick bite here and there, and adrenaline from running here to there.  I don't want school to start, because I know then for sure, there will be no time to slow down.  It seems as if the summer passed in the blink of an eye, and my October calendar is already filling up.  I so badly want to just slam on the breaks and pull over.  (I now envision a beautiful "Little House on the Prairie-esq" field full of wild flowers up to my knees and me running through them in slow motion-skinny...and with long shiny hair...well manicured...and NO ponytail) It's my fantasy, why not. Note: There are no men there.  I have always snuck in the me time, but I am feeling that I need a re-charge and I am looking for balance.  I could just say to heck with it and take a nap for the two hours, but then I will have to scramble to make up for the list cited above, and the rest of this week doesn't look like it's giving me an inch!

I am so lucky to have connected with a wonderful group of single mom bloggers, and well wonderful bloggers all around.  So I ask you Moms, how do you find your me time?  The co-parenting (slim co-parenting) time the kids spend with BD allows me to work without paying even more childcare costs than I do already.  My days are filled with constant errands and appointments, a full time job, and my 50 mile round trip to therapy 4 times a week, now increases to 5 with Day Treatment. 

My soul is in need of some restoration.  I need to be filled again with all of that goodness and simplicity in life that makes it so wonderful.  So help me out Mommy's...and don't say take a bath.  Nearly impossible.  That would just be a tease.  Not two minutes into it and my kids would start WWII, then I would just be dripping wet; or if I wait until they go to sleep, I may drift off and drown, then my children would be Mommy-less.  There I go relaxing again....

I really want to know...how many Mom's out there really, and I mean really, deliberately carve out some time in their day/week/hour for some me time?  What do you do?  HOW do you accomplish this?

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