July 12, 2011

The Politics of Fear and Doubt

Here it comes. Casey Anthony, sort of, I really don’t have too much to say about her. Really I should be blogging on something else, like the government shut down craziness in Minnesota, don't get me started on that one. Okay, so this post, in my usual off topic fashion, is derived from the craziness and tragic nature of this case. Here goes....I can't be mad at the jury for the verdict. I didn't watch the trial, so I don't know all the ins and outs of this thing, I don't want to know {okay I know most of it, my sister filled me in, she watched this everyday}. I would be lying if I said I wasn't praying for a guilty verdict on at least some murder/homicide/abuse count(s). I don’t regard the ludicrous charges she got appropriate. Really?  I understand completely that you can't convict based upon a "feeling". In her shoes, I wouldn't want to be convicted of a crime without sufficient evidence either.  In the jury’s shoes, I wouldn’t want to convict without sufficient evidence.
That being said, when you throw anyone and everyone under the bus, act irresponsibly, lie, lie, cover up, lie and lie; I think you probably had a hand in death of your child. When my child does something wrong and doesn't want to fess up because they feel guilty, they lie, at least drama queen does, the boy and Autism don't understand lying. I wouldn't be surprised if there was some vigil ante justice after she is released, I hope not.  At any rate this will eat away at her for the rest of her life. Well never mind that, she doesn't seem to have much of a conscience.  I can't begin to speculate here, I can't relate to psychopath. Enough of her and her crazy.
I was really intrigued by Judge Perry's explanation to the jury about reasonable doubt, and how to differentiate if a witness testimony is believable or not. Basically, it's a gut feeling. {Keep in mind, paraphrasing} So this got me to thinking, we can reasonably doubt almost anything if we try, or don't try.  And are American's “gut feelings” now basically non-existent?
First, doubt.  Could someone have had reconstructive plastic surgery to look identical to the alleged killer? Sure. Improbable, yet possible. Doubt happens. It finds us easily.  It is a part of life, and often what holds us back from doing extraordinary things. Perhaps most often we doubt the things we feel most strongly about, our faith, love, loyalty, our instincts/conscience, ourselves; the things that reside in the deepest parts of our soul. At times it's easier to doubt and just give in to it than be brave and bold in our decisions and convictions. Fear holds us back from amazing things; much easier to let fear take hold, then to stand up to it and take chances, even though not knowing the outcome is scary.
Secondly, I got into a conversation about conscience at a class I was teaching with a lovely lady who happens to teach middle school. We were talking about the trial, and how even though Casey was declared not guilty, we all know she is guilty of something. It's a feeling. And so we talked about how nowadays {heehee, I'm old}, the general population cannot even differentiate between right and wrong, based upon emotion. It is skewed. She sees it in her students and parents, and it worsens as the years pass. Is it something ingrained in us that we get used to ignoring? Is it taught by our parents? Is it modeled by elders and peers? More than likely it is all of the above. The world is so demanding and there is always something vying for our attention. It's hard to differentiate between right and wrong when you can't hear it. The right decision comes from a place of calm, a quiet place where anger, rage, desperation, and hurt have no voice.
I struggle with how the jury could find any clarity in this trial. God bless ‘em.  It would've tore me up inside. Well let’s be realistic here, I probably would've been booted out for my peace and love hippy talk anyway. I hope they can find some serenity now that all is said and done.  I can only imagine the tremendous burden of doubt they carry wondering if they did the right thing. See? Doubt again.
If there is one thing I know in this life, it is that things are most certainly not black and white...well except for maybe speed limits.
Rest in peace, Caylee.


  1. Casey definitely knows what happened to Caylee. There was just no proof of how, where, or why Caylee was murdered. I can think of a handful of times I've done things that can be perceived as "bad parenting", one being that time I told my daughter I'd punch her in her face at AT&T (what. she laughed and she got free balloons out of that deal). A number of things may come up that make people "feel" like I could harm her, even though most know I never would.

    I guess what I'm saying is that if one person is wrongly convicted of something so horrible, it isn't worth it. Caylee died a horrible death. Regardless of what happens to Casey or whomever caused it, there will never be justice for that.

    It is a reminder to watch our kids and by ours, I mean everyone's. I think of Christian Choate who was being kept in a cage while 13 people knew about it and didn't say anything. Maybe we can try harder to keep things like this from happening.

  2. This just make me want to give my son an extra hug.

  3. Christina-You're so right. It's hard to make sense of it, because you {meaning me} wants to blame someone, or make someone accountable for Caylee's death, and sadly that won't happen. Casey is soooo deceitful, it just makes it easy. Your last paragraph is correct too. Tragedy always snaps us back to reality. And it's sad to think how many innocent kids have lost their lives since Caylee.

    Okay, it is bad that I can't stop laughing at your punching your kid comment? I, ofcourse know you wouldn't do that. I think anyone who claims they haven't had a Mommy Dearest moment, so to speak, it flat out lying. I plead ovaries! See what you started:) I love it! In a nutshell, you're brilliant my friend.

  4. It's heartbreaking what happened to Caylee, and it's mind-boggling what happened to Casey. It's almost tempting to point fingers, but I may not be in the proper position to do that.

    I'd like to think that somehow, justice will be served.

  5. I love your opinion posts.There is so much doubt in the world. It is so easy to second guess everything.


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