April 23, 2012

Top Three Things That Irritate Me



This is no whiskers on kittens post.  Optimistic Cari step-aside, snarky Cari step up.  Not sure which actually employs more time around here as of late.  I like to think I have a nice balance, and while I'd like to assume nicey-nice me wins out most often; I'm not in denial.  Therefore, I shall go forth and get my whine on and serve you will a Top Three list.  Because they are easy.  And so, the top three things that irritate me about the A-Z Challenge.

As monumentally good as this has been for me, sans a few crap posts, I am counting the days until it is over.    Six, glorious six.  I enjoy writing and this has certainly been an exercise in such; but now I am overwhelmed, angry and torn.

Overwhelmed

I write as is, these six days a week on the blog is too much for me.  My blog hasn't seen this much action since...well ever frankly, and she's tired and cranky.  I have also quite possibly irritated a good majority of my readership with this little A-Z dance.  Sorry about that, lovelies. But a welcome and pleased to meetcha to all my new readers.

Angry

Second, I'm angry.  Angry because I feel that during this exercise I have been publishing some major crapola.  I know I totally need to embrace this, but let's be honest; blogging about being a Solid Gold Dancer is not my finest work.  Mullets one minute, crying the next; sheesh.  I can hammer out a post in half an hour, most of my "good" work is actually done that way.  The things I labor over seem to equate to huge failure.  Failure in my own eyes I suppose.  I don't see failure or success in numbers or stats.  That just confuses me even more.  I keep to my own personal standards in my writing; any other opinions are subjective, therefore not concrete.

I guess because I've been in the blogging world for a while now, you are only as good as your last post.  Most people will not delve past what is on your first page unless your words invite them to do so; or curiosity, either or.  I feel like perhaps I have only a certain number of good posts in me before this sucker whithers up and dies.  Seen too many blogs succumb to lost mojo.  As of now, I have an indefinite amount of crap to write about and see no sign of stopping in the future, but if the want isn’t there then what?  I suppose that is where the push through it aspect of the challenge would be to my advantage.  Two reasons I have held firm to completing this challenge is to a) bask in the glory on the other side and b) note how it has affected my writing on the other side.  Will I want to blog more?  Will my style have changed?  Do I actually have a style?  Jury is still out.  It will be interesting.

Torn & Time

Third, in order to actually sit down and write, it would involve me giving up some other aspects of my life to make room for this.  I am already maxed out; yes a glutton for punishment but I thought it would be fun.  Admittedly this has been fun, most of the time.  What I have given up to write is time with my kids reading and meditation.  Meditation is a must for me always, I at least find 20-30 minutes in my day. It definitely keeps me centered.  Then there is reading.  Usually, this would be a non-issue; I can go spurts without reading books and usually have a "to-read" pile on my desk.  "Hunger Games" is still sitting there, unread.  My book reading has now converted to straight-up blog reading.  I do that anyway, but not this many.  It's daunting, and there are some seriously good writers out there; it's a smidge intimidating.  Also, I was a fool and never, ever, ever, ever, should've started reading, "Fifty Shades of Grey" {yeah, yeah, "mommy porn"}.  I won't lie; it's a page turner, ahem.  How is this blog going to compete with FIFTY?  It cannot. Now I know how all you Twilight people got roped in with your glittery vampires.  Usually I don't go the romance route; but it is quite intriguing and of course I need the second installment which happens to be sold out everywhere!   I have resigned myself to not even buying the second book until this challenge is finished.  I do have to unmask some sort of brilliance for U, X and Z.  Cannot be done whilst indulging in E. L. James.  Thanks Ali, I place complete blame on you for this.

I am also abundantly grateful that THREE begins will "T" and not just TEN.  I'm hanging in there A-Z.

Thanks for hanging in there with me.

What are you reading?



18 comments:

  1. Well I thought your posts were really good for A to Z. That's what messed me up, is I end up forcing stuff like I did last year and I'm embarrassed for that crap to even be read. I thought your posts were thoughtful and funny though. You're doing a great job, btw. Have I told you that?

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  2. Well their are two major differences between you and I: I usually publish mediocre crap and I don't care what people think. When you write that is tricky though, especially when you are somewhat established like yourself. So I feel ya....quitter.

    Oh and thank you for all the support. I do appreciate it. I hope the pangs of guilt don't eat away at you.;) Still love ya!

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  3. I'm a new follower and have enjoyed reading your posts. I'll be glad when this challenge is over as well, for many of the same reasons you listed above. As for my to read pile, I'm not ever sure what's on it. Books from friends and families, some items from the library that I've renewed to their limit, and not I have books I've discovered through the challenge. It's going to take some catching up.

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    1. Janna I always feel like I'm catching up;) Glad it's not just me though. Thanks for reading.

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  4. I totally understand....& I'm way behind....blah!

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    1. That's why you have to slap a couple crap posts up to catch up. Done that every weekend thus far. You're still hanging girl.

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  5. I'm a devoted reader of your blog....but not necessary as consistently as the A-Z challenge has made me.

    As a co-conspirator of ideas for the 2nd half of the alphabet....I don't recall ANY of the brainstorming ideas we listed, except for Y....so I'll be highly disappointed if that doesn't make the list since I think it was my finest brainstorming idea....aside from S, and we know you didn't get through Fifty in time--though it sounds like you're done now. BTW....I read installment 2 betwen Friday and last night....just started the last..sniff sniff. I'm not apologizing for "making" you buy the book......it's a HOT little read :O

    --Ali

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    1. You are not just a co-conspirator on this blog, also in my life, girly. Although I'm usually the bad influence. When did things shift? Interesting. Well looks like book#2 is worse than the first, lol. I will not call you this week otherwise I will beg you to tell me everything! And yes, margaritas and brainstorming have that effect.

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  6. also....LOVED R!! For some reason the Destiny's Child song Survivor has started playing in my head ;)

    -Ali

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    1. What no rap? You are quite the rapper. I was impressed.

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  7. what am I reading!??! Other blogs!! It's a nightmare. I'm with you..everything you said. I'm writing some crap too. And my eyeballs feel like sandpaper. Thank God there are not 59 letters in the alphabet. This HAS been a great adventure in discipline and scrounging for thoughts, but I'll be ready to hang it up. And the follower thing..seems the point of that is to simply get face time on other blogs. Nobody can actually read daily, or even weekly, 50 or 500 or 2500 blogs. Or is it just me? Great post!

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  8. No, it's not just you and thank goodness! It's slowly killing me. I want to read more blogs, just haven't the time. Boo;( And yes, I want to talk to the lady visiting all 2000 blogs.

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  9. I tottaly feel you chick!! Some days it is frustrates me just thinking that I have to sit and blog after everything else my day has brought. I'm not established, and this would have been a great opportunity to gain some readership, but I feel like I am failing miserably. I ran out of things to write about around letter C Then my Mija caught a wicked vicious cold that we are still battling, and I fell behind. Badly. I blog when she sleeps and let me tell ya, when Lala is sick, Lala doesn't sleep unless it's in with me, therefore no bloggy time.

    I think you have been putting out some stellar stuff girlie, you always do, but this challenge has really brought a different side of your writing out. I love it all!! You are doing a wonderfully, keep it up!! I think I would skip reading my "P" post, I think I may have offended someone, and "R" probably won't be much better, lmao. I'm sticking it out with you, even if I'm behind!

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    1. Sorry about all the sickness, hope everyone is on the mend. AND shut the front door, some of your posts have been my favorite. I think the "challenge" is writing when we don't feel inspired and don't have a dang thing to say. And the other stuff too. Now I'm going to read P, stat, especially if you offended someone;) Even if it's me.

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  10. Your blog was one of the first that I "discovered" and continue to follow. Don't be so hard on yourself...I think you doing the A-Z challenge speaks volumes for your talent/ability as a writer. I briefly considered doing the challenge until I couldn't even think of topics for more than about 6 letters. Oish. BTW...I found the Solid Gold Dancers and of course Mullet postings to be extremely entertaining.

    You're almost there!!! Keep up the good blogging! :D

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    1. Well thanks, that makes me feel better;) I couldn't think of topics for more than 4, but I still did it. Just proves I'm crazy (ier). Thanks for reading {hugs}. Now how am I going to coincide "Z" and the flash mob post Monday?

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  11. I totally agree with you about A-Z. It's really taking over my entire life and I certainly won't be trying to keep up this pace once the month is over. Mostly I'm just trying to make it to the end.

    ~ Rhonda Parrish

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    1. Not much longer...the pace, yeah, not keeping this up I can tell you that.

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